I’ve been thinking lately about how events in your academic life can lead to unintended, and often times unrecognized, downstream effects. Recently I realized that I’m having trouble putting together a couple of papers that I’m supposed to be leading. After some reflection I came to the conclusion that at least one reason is I’ve been affected by the long, tortuous, and somewhat degrading process of trying to get a large and rather important paper published. This paper has been in the works, and through multiple submission/revision cycles, for around five years. And it starts to really wear on your academic psyche after that time, though it can be hard to recognize. I think that my failure to get that paper published (so far) is partly holding me back on putting together these other papers. Partly this is about the continuing and varied forms of rejection you experience in this process, but partly it’s about the fact that there’s something sitting there that shouldn’t be sitting there. Even though I don’t currently have any active tasks that I have to complete for that problem paper it still weighs on me.
The silver lining is that once I recognized that this was a factor things started to seem easier with those projects and the story I was trying to tell. Anyway, I think we as academics should have our own therapists that specialize in problems such as this. It would be very helpful.